Sometimes, I can be ridiculously lazy – right now, for example, I am snuggled under blankets and reading and thinking about pre-ordering Jean Paul Gaultier’s new water bottle for Evian instead of walking to the kitchen for a bottle that I already have that I now want desperately.

I must admit that in many ways, actually, I am a rather lazy person. In general, I am lazy in maintaining relationships. No, not in my romantic relationships – those I nearly kill myself over – but in maintaining those with friends and family members.

I have never really been a big family person and perhaps that is because I grew up far away from the bulk of my extended family, but it is also because I feel true family and friends do not require constant contact, constant communication. Of course we all drift apart over the years and turn into slightly different people, but in the end, if you can still call up a friend from a few years back and begin the conversation with ‘I just bought the most amazing pair of shoes!’ then you know things are fine and always will be.

I’m reading this damned depressing French book Nothing Serious by Justine Levy, which is the exact sort of book I should not be reading right now (although I am enjoying it). I’m not going into the book at all right now, but if you want to feel worse than you already do, step into the depressing life of Louis and you might just want to hang yourself. And of course what am I listening to when I’m reading this, songs like Coldplay’s Fix You. I also just learned more about one of my best friend’s recent trip via her facebook album instead of through stories being told over a bottle of wine or a great diner in the LES.

It may be obvious, but there’s no harm in stating it anyway: I’m clearly stuck in a rut. I’m thinking about ex-boyfriends constantly, not willing to give any new guys a try, and while everything is quite lovely in my home life, I just feel a bit stuck, idle. I have an unfamiliar yearning to connect with people I’ve lost touch with, and at the same time I’m ready to completely let go of everything and move on. Maybe I should pre-order a bottle of JPG’s Evian water – perhaps I could use a tall glass of water right about now…